The hubby and I have been discussing lately whether to get re-stationed somewhere else or stay here aboard Camp Pendleton. I really think that it is time I experience more to life and have a change. I have been in California my entire life and know no different. North Carolina could be really good for us/me. I am just so scared that my three kids from my previous marriage wouldn't be able to come therefore making it so that I would not be able to relocate myself. I am not willing to be away from my husband and take my daughter away from her father for a few years.
You may ask how I feel comfortable taking my other three away from their dad but there are many reasons. First, I have primary custody of them and they only see their dad every other weekend... about 5 days out of every month... Two he is getting married... and its not the fact that he is getting married because that part I could careless about.... its to who. I don't care that it is to the woman he had an affair on me with... I don't even care that it is the girl he left me pregnant for but what in fact bothers me is that it is the same girl that did drugs with my children in the home. What if one of them had gotten a hold of them. Yes, I understand she went to rehab... but it was for the third time. I just cant fathom as to why you would want to expose your children to a person like that.
He is a good dad in the fact that he loves them... he pays his child support and what not... but in the sense of actually being a father... he is horrible. He could have O.D'd my at the time one year old when he couldn't not only not follow simple instructions from me but couldn't even follow directions on a bottle... giving my one yr old 4 tbls every hour of cough syrup instead of giving him 1 tsp every four hours... then just the other day not paying attention to his daughter when I told him I thought she was getting a bladder infection and did nothing... when i got her back two days later took her to the doctors and she had a urinary tract infection. It was a total wtf moment and how can you not pay attention when I told you...
So, I guess my point is this. How can a judge not let me go??? How can he tell my infant who sees her dad every day of her life "Sorry you will not be able to see your dad because these kids who only see their dad a few days a month is more important" I don't see it happening... but it in fact could and that terrifies me.
I guess now it is time for me to end this and get off my booty and go clean some more while the baby is napping.
Until next time!
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